mel*lovesyou

2006-10-04T12:45:00.000+08:00

OOCH HELLLOOOO =D

im in the school library now and for once in many years mrs loh isnt here and i didnt bring any work to do either so yeah. oh wells. lets introduce u to some new member of the nickname family..

JOanna- CLEAN GREEN FROG!
TIFFany- CRAZY FROG!

hurr its damn funny la. so full of nonsense and i swear jo's cheeks are damn nice to pinch.. and skl seems rather quiet today that theres no audrey to make us laugh with her screwed up mind.. SHE PONN SKL THAT STUPID GIRL! probably watching tennis now.. hmm. last night was fcuked up, thank god for nic.. and she makes me laugh so hard at her stupid concepts and what motivates her to wake up in the morning(; lets slam jo for now.. HER DOG'S AS FEROCIOUS AS THE OWNER! she let loose her dog and her dog chased the lady till she fell into the drain. terrible i tell u. haha im outta here.. theres still chinese lesson later and aprime tonight. lets see what other corny jokes mr kok can come up with =p

IM GONNA GO DRINK RASPBERRY ICE TEA LATER(:
i swear i hate you for all the hurt u've inflicted on me.

2006-09-05T10:27:00.000+08:00

HELLLOOOO
ooch cramps sucks lke hell. ^%^$^%#$%*. just when me and nic were planning to go sentosa. ooch bugger. anyway, ITS THE HOLIDAYS! =D hee. im enjoying the late night and late mornings.. haha. lets tell you about THE PLANS(;

&going out with kenn today
&tennis with ger,aud,pok tmrr and tuition
&sentosa on thurs!
&FRIDAY DADDY'S COMING BACK!!! =D and going out with u.

flalalalalala.. okae im gnna go get some work done. <33

2006-08-25T21:40:00.000+08:00

TODAY'S DOINGS:
quarrelled with you
got yelled "get lost" at
chinese paper which i nearly fell aslp if it werent for that big fat WAKE UP on the test paper
spent 2hours infront of the tv
spent 1 hour fcuking crying out of frustration and annoyance
spent 1 hour sleeping
20 mins showering
1 hour highlighting human geog
spent 1 and half hours talking and ranting to sherwin and pok
1 hour on the tv
1 hour online

DO YOU NOTICE SOMETHING? I FREAKING DID NOT STUDY TODAY! im seriously in no mood to do so and i reallae feeling super guilty but i cant bring myself to. im just gnna let myself slack today and tomorrow im gnna get over it and do hard core physical geog.
^%^%$^$%*$#%#$@#

-/mels annoyed.

2006-08-15T12:43:00.000+08:00

is it that impt to potray an available image?
$#$^%&*^*(^&)*{&)%)$
thats all i can say.

he wants all her love but its just beyond his reach.

RUSSIA,CHINA AND ALL OF HISTORY SHLD JUST BURN AND ROT IN DUNG! blech.

2006-07-28T14:27:00.000+08:00

AHH I JUST WANNA BURY MY HEAD DEEP INTO THE GROUND!
i look so STOOPID in the pictures tricia took! GROSS GROSS GROSS! did u see my lion's mane?? OMGAWD.

okae heymath amaths time again. <33

HELLOO TRICIA AND JOANNA WHO'S HERE TO GLOAT AT THE STOOPID PICTURES YOU'VE SEEN OF ME!(;

2006-07-27T13:03:00.000+08:00

founder's was a blast! haha we were lke cam whoring the whole night! but it was REALLAE REALLAE FUNN!(; oh wells.. so much to update and fill u in but SO LITTLE TIME! im gnna go do heymaths so ttyl! <33

trish: STOP THE BLACKMAILING! hurr. stoopid girl keep catching me unaware and take pictures of me looking stoopid hee. BUT I STILL LOVE YOU YOU OWL! night time high.. day time sleep xP

_how much.. do i reallae love you?
DADDY'S LEAVING ON SATURDAY!*poutpoutpout

2006-07-09T01:09:00.000+08:00

ger's FLABBY AND BLOBBLY!
hahahaha

anw, had dinner with grandpapa and family just now.. WAS GRANDAD'S BIRTHDAY! i think hes 80 yrs old. OMGAWD THATS DAMNN OLD. okokae nevermind.. old but WISE!(; saw baby gab as well.. ooch hes lke damnn cute! went shopping with nicc and trish the whole day i din even study. GUILTY AS HELL. gonna crash tmr.. oh wells. hanged out at kens place with him and huron ystd.. had pizza and brownies for dinner (damnn it was reallae good) and ditched scary movie 4 half way for cam whoring in kens room and chatting. haha! reallae enjoyed myself. THANK GOD FOR FRIENDS. =D
im outta here.

game,game and more game for youu. thats all that matters i suppose huhh

2006-07-05T22:01:00.000+08:00

you've got expectations and all i've been doing all this while is to try and meet them. i obviously have my expectations too so shouldnt you understand since uve got them as well? i try to meet your expectations.. what are you doing about mine?
you can have expectations from ppl but ppl cant have expectations of you.

i was losing myself to someone else but now i see i dont wanna pretend
cause the girl that you want was tearing us apart
cause she's everything im not.

calling my dearr daughter.

2006-07-03T22:11:00.000+08:00

I'm having the day from hell
It was all going so well
Before you came

And not to mention the tears i shed
I shoulda kicked your ass instead
i need intervention
Attention to stop temptation to scream

Cause baby
Everything is f'ed up straight from the heart
Tell me, what do you do when it all falls apart
Gotta pick myself up, where do I start
Cause I can't turn to you when it all falls apart

Don't know where I parked my car
Don't know who my real friends are anymore
I put my faith in you
What a stupid thing to do
When it rains it pours

And not to mention I drank too much
I'm feelin' hungover
Out of touch
I need intervention
Attention to stop temptation to scream

Can't it be easier?
Can't I just change my life?
Cause it just seems to go bad every time
Will I be mending
Another one ending once again

2006-06-29T18:22:00.000+08:00

damnn the results suck so bad i dun even know what to say.

im tired.
im pisst.
im disappointed.
im putting in effort to study.
im on webcam being watched by chris.
im being imitated by mich lking lke a fish.
im still hungry though i had dinner.
im heading back to studying physics.

loves.

2006-06-27T22:57:00.000+08:00

i fell asleep infront of mr ling during his maths period today OOOPS! MY BAD! but he din seem to care. ANW, i officially declare myself as a stone fish =p kept staring off into blank space today.. was so tired in skl and now im freaking awake! i cant sleep! rather fed up i wish i could just take a damn sleeping pill and knock out.

_piece of dung

2006-06-25T22:23:00.000+08:00

ooch sweet sixteen! hee. im official! BUT I DIN SAY FOR WHAT AH! haha(; skl's starting tmr and im screwed cos ive not done my amaths papers at all... oh wells. birthday was funn i guess.. i was lke blushed red cos my mom had live three person "band" playing happy birthday for me and pretty women. dammn its reallae sweet but yeahh im bad with such stuffs. hee had dinner with chris and his parents, my godparents and daddy,mommy at some spanish restaurant at clarke quay.. way yummy! and yes im a sucker at handling prawns. NOW YOU KNOW WHY I LOVE DADDY SO MUCH(;

alright im off.. its almost 11 and i'm not in a mood to talk.
p.s. high school musical was quite good.. troy's shiat cute.(;

all i wanted was to know that you want me for who i am now and not who you want me or who i was then. you cant expect me to be okay with everything cause im not. its more than your life.. its more than your pain.. its about mine too.

2006-06-21T21:34:00.000+08:00

i am terribly sleepy!
went and hang out with nicc today at her place.. so much for doing maths cos i fell aslp infront of the teebee and she was engrossed in killing and breaking her piano into half. u reallae shld see how she plays.. or should i say slam her fingers hard on the piano keys. haha! yeahh and i totally got dragged by dorothy to be her photography project model. LIKE WHAT THE HELL! im camera shy! =p haha as in i can never have picture taken alone by someone else! they (she and her friends.. who are actually quite cool la. all the jap and blings) exploited me! nahh its called im being helpful haha(;

oh wells. gonna go watch just my luck tmr with nicc and go buy kenn's present before meetin pok and going for sonic fest night rally.. yup! ooch i cant wait! hmm who am i bluffing.. all i cant wait for now is to sleep =p.

sotong.
sea animals kick ass

2006-06-18T18:28:00.000+08:00

let's sum the past three days up:

fullerton chocolate buffet
hanged out with ken and huron
A HELL BIG LOAD OF EMOTION'S UP AND DOWN

i reallae enjoyed talking to huron etc.. makes me see the big picture way clearer. i din go coos so ended up going to pok's church.. catched up with some friends and saw SOMEONE** hmm hmm. haha! yupp.. sigh. everything's just CRAZY! thank God for friends. reallae.

u never fail to pisst me off yet making up to me again (seeming reallae reallae sincere)

2006-06-14T18:10:00.000+08:00

JUST CAME BACK FROM THE CHALET!
okae not reallae.. that was a few hours ago when we checked out. the rest went home to sleep while pok&jo went to occ and i went back to chris's place with him. omg, when hes high.. hes REALLAE HIGH and retarded. HAHA

oh wells.. the chalet was quite fun! haha.. went to play bowling, tennis, pool, the arcade. HELL LOADS OF FUN! haha. played xbox lke almost 24/7.. till the wee morning on the first night. haha. shit im getting better at top spin! its damnn fun! me and pok manage to team up and beat the pros! (aud&joanna) hee. and the second night, everyone drank abit too much and they al knocked out =p leaving me, chris and malvin to rot by the beach, playground and in the room talking rubbish. its damn funny having both of them spinning each other round and round.. malvin was so high he couldnt sleep! hurr.

AND A CAMERA IS NOT A STOOPID MACHINE(;

i knocked out in the room in the end, forcing chris to sleep on the floor cos i took the bed =p. OOPSY DOOPSY! oh wells. i couldnt wake up this morning.. was soo soo tired. i even fell asleep at his place when he went to shower.. hurr. oh ya, THANKS TO MELPO,JO,NIC,AUD,AMANDA etc.. for the present and for the surprise! they made a heart using candles by the beach.. haha! <3333.>

in love with a retard.

2006-06-12T13:13:00.000+08:00

federer lost. FEDERER LOST!
omgawd, he won the first set and lost the next three. &^%$%%*#%@&. gahh me and aud were rooting for him la! bums. we were watching and she was packing as well.. hurr. waiting for them to come over aft literature than we're going over to the chalet already. CANT WAIT! hee. top spin.. need for speed.. dead or alive! woohoo!(;

now, can chris reply me ! haha if not we'll end up playing squash with one racket.. which is totally impossible. blech. he needs to pass me his racket. oh wells.. will update again when im back!<33

_i need to talk to you

2006-06-10T13:07:00.000+08:00

whats causing me to slip away from you is actually pearl,mel and clar.
im going away cause i dont wanna see/know things that will cut me so deep.

__that msg wasnt meant to spite you.

2006-06-08T14:03:00.000+08:00

POKPOKPOK! haha shes coming over soon than we're going for lunch. LIKE FINALLY! im dying of hunger pangs! hurr. ooch I LOVEE HER !

hmm din go skl today.. was too damn tired. HAHA was ranting away.. elvin had to put up with it till 1 plus am. =p hurr. THANK YOU ELVIN LIANG CHONG WEN! BUT DO ME A FAVOUR AND STOP CALLING ME A SEALION YOU GOOSE! haha and now while ure showering.. im thinking of ways to silence you the next time you call me one! hee.

im selfish girl.. i dont share.
so im giving you up

2006-06-07T15:54:00.000+08:00

i hate you.

ooch was i loud enough? no?

I FREAKING HATE YOU.

im bloody annoyed. i maybe reading too much into it but fag i dun care.. i dun even wanna meet you later.. i cant be bothered to thrash it out with you anymore. i seriously THANK GOD FOR AUD AND GER cos they take my mind off by making me laugh.. at her (for ger) HAHAHAHAH! and aud thought seed in chinese was called dou zi. shit hilarious mann.

"smelly melly likes ancic on clay" hee. actually, i love him anywhere.(;
im driving them mad with ancic's pretty face and i just said myskina sucks to ger. SHES GOING BONKERS

2006-06-05T14:39:00.000+08:00

omgawd I AM SUCH A PIG! i just woke up not long ago and im feeling SLEEPYY again!
oh wells.

did i tell u im freaking emo? i WAS happy this morning.. and now i feel lke crying. i think ive been taking too much medicine till it clogged my brains. still coughing and sneezing lke nobody's business tho. btw, AN APPLE A DAY DOES NOT KEEP THE DOCTOR AWAY! im gonna go see him again later.. bums. ooch, i feel so much better/relief! hurr. XIAOPOKCAI,NICC AND AUD din go for physics either! I DIN EVEN TURN UP FOR MATHS! i cldnt wake up.. =p hee.

MOMMY'S BACK FROM CHENNAI.. chengmai? chenmai? HOWEVER YOU SPELL IT! hurr. <3333333

went for the global prayer thing at the stadium last night with chris and his parents.. it wasnt as boring as i thought it would be but rather.. there was much good from it =D and we went for teochew porridge aft that.. I AM NEVER EVER TOUCHING PIG INTESTINES AGAIN! omgawd lke i cld never finish chewing cum swallowing that lump of... intestine? =p. hmmph hmmph RANT RANT RANT GOES MEL..

isymusoi

2006-06-04T16:00:00.000+08:00

Story of my life
Searching for the right
But it keeps avoiding me
Sorrow in my soul
Cuz it seems that wrong
Really loves my company

He's more than a man
And this is more than love
The reason that the sky is blue
The clouds are rolling in
Because I'm gone again
And to him I just can't be true

And I know that he knows I'm unfaithful A
nd it kills him inside
To know that I am happy with some other guy
I can see him dyin'

I don't wanna do this anymore
I don't wanna be the reason why
Everytime I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside
I don't wanna hurt him anymore
I don't wanna take away his life
I don't wanna be.... a murderer

<33u.

2006-05-14T11:30:00.000+08:00

hmmm tmr's history and im rather screwed cos i cant rmb a shit. chris tested me once on cultural revolution than james tested me again and i cant 100% rmb everything! gosh, WOULD THE DAMN HISTORY JUST STAY IN MY HEAD! considering the fact im cramming more ss in. bums. got a wedding dinner tonight.. bahh. its weird cos i dun exactly know the bride and groom -- dad's friends. =p oh wells.. i gotta go visit my godma cos its MOMMY'S DAY TODAY! hurr.

umm.. when's DADDY'S DAY?

ive wasted too much time on clueless guys lke you

2006-05-05T14:42:00.000+08:00

What Your Face Says

At first glance, people see you as confident and determined.
Overall, your true self is creative and expressive.
With friends, you seem dramatic, lively, and quick to react.
In love, you seem mysterious and interesting.
In stressful situations, you seem selfish and moody.

What Do People Think Of Your Face?

i was that bored.

2006-05-05T14:10:00.000+08:00

the tears that you never ever saw.
the hurt that you never ever felt.
the smile that you assumed meant happiness.
the love that will soon be gone for good.
im sorry if one day i walk out of your life without saying goodbye

shit i am feeling damn bad now cos all ive done for the whole day is maths.. lke totally ditched the ss. bums. gonna go over the nat's place soon to revise human geog.. I AM GONNA CONCENTRATE. I WILL CONCENTRATE. sigh.. reverse reverse psychology huh? hurr. was supposed to go cycling with my xiao pok cai this morning but the sky jsut damn to be shit black.. nahh. its literally grey sky mornings. gahh oh wells.. im off.

my heart lies with someone else

2006-04-29T16:12:00.000+08:00

OMGAWD i just found out something BIG! shit i cant keep it to myself no longer. hurr

bahh. i had tuition in the morning.. not very productive bahh. understood more chem and amaths but ive still got shit loads ahead of me on monday when junwei comes again. than studied physics for 2 hours oddd. screw im taking a break.. talking to peiling online. I HOPE SHE CAN STILL COME BACK ON THE 9TH! that wedding invite better appear soon enough.. hurr.(; bahh lalalalaladeeeeblecch. ttyl world.. i gotta go church soon. <33

and your hand's for mine to holdd.

2006-04-26T21:19:00.000+08:00

shiat pe was freaking funny today! hurr.. we play multi sports and i swear i nearly died laughing. AMANDA OUR SUPPOSEDLY REALLAE GOOD SOCCER PLAYER run, run, run and run towards the ball.. stop. and kicked the ball... TOWARDS THE OPPONENTS GOAL POST! omg, we were laughing so hard cos she seemed so cool etc.. lke we were so ready to win that point and.. yeah. haha ! but in the end she managed to "save" the ball and scored at the CORRECT END. hurr that girls damnn funny. literally

ger's another one. HAHA ! we were playing basketball and it dragged on for duno how many donkey minutes.. and i was so fed up i passed the ball to her so she can shoot than she goes "BUT IM NOT A SHOOTER!" hahha ! and she was so afraid of getting whacked by the soccer ball so she ran to defend the goal post instead.. BUT IT WAS THE WRONG ONE! hahahahaha ! she should change her name to BLURR and RETARDED hee. right ger? KEEP LAUGHING AT ME ON SMS! hurr. btw, i think miss teo's gonna fail us.. THE OUTLINE'S REALLAE CRAP.

oh wells.. amanda's been high on bingo. HAHA cos nicc lost lke 10 times in a row.. probably boost manda's confidence/ego huh? HAHAA ! nicc just admit defeat la ! YOU WLD NEVER LEARN WLD CHA? hee. (: oh wells im outta here.. i gotta finish studying resources- human geog. BAHHH.
PERSONAL SHOUTOUT: HELLLOOOOOOO BEACH WHALE(;

2006-04-23T17:43:00.000+08:00

im at nicc's hse. she went to WATER THE GARDEN! try imaging that scene. DONT WANNA (;

you put the ass to the hole.

2006-04-21T23:04:00.000+08:00

haha ! skl today was freaking funn and funny! hurr. MELPOK'S NEW NICKNAME IS XIAO POK CAI! hahaha. cos manda was giving away veg stickers and she was the cabbage so ya.. xiao POK cai. geddit? if u dun ure seriously slow hurr and shes gonna kill me for this but screw (; yeahh and mr ling has not been in skl for the past two days. SHOCKSHOCKHORRORHORROR. literally. haha we thought our ears played tricks on us.. and ger was being the LEOPARDSEAL on the class floor. HAHA I SWEAR SHE LOOKS JUST LIKE ONE.. and she "siams" real fast when getting attacked by JO haha !

GER: who ask u to go keep kicking her chair! i nearly flew off when u did it to me la.. hurr. and you damn itchy bum.. got chair for u to sit.. u go LIE on the floor. YOU SUCK LA ! haha. miss potato stalk.. hurr. joy and her peabrain makes me wanna just burst out laughing now hee. "GER IS HOT". and "JOY IS NOT". goshh u guys are seriously funny. BUT ALWAYS AT THE WRONG TIME! bet we pisst that speaker off la.. plus we werent listening the least bit. URE THE DEVIL IN DISGUISE.. dont deny!(;

HAPPY BIRTHDAYY MANNDAAAAA hee. if u ever see this that is but what the hack.. ooch. we went to buy STUFFS just now. HEE. omg, i swear aud's freaking funny! shes lke the most screwed up brain person ive ever met.. BUT I STILL LOVE HER. she makes my day men.. with all the farnie stuffs. hee. we had sbl talk today too.. ohmy, GER,JOY,JO,NICC and AUD was damn funny.. keep making me laugh till i had tummyache and i think we made ALOT of noise. REALLAE. wadever joy's a bird with halk eyes, mouth of a sparrow but BRAIN OF A PEA haha !

When the tables turn again
You'll remember me my friend
You'll be wishing I was there for you
i'll be the one you miss the most
But you'll only find my ghost
As time goes by
You'll wonder why
You're all alone

2006-04-18T20:45:00.000+08:00

blech we lost 2-3 but well, they fought hard.. esp jilly. IM PROUD OF YOU ALL STILL
MUACKS!

anyway, GER'S FREAKING FUNNY. trying to debate with me and say that MYSKINA IS GOOD AND SHES NOT JUST LUCKY THAT SHE WON. dude... SHE STILL LOST TO ALOT OF PPL. (almost EVERYONE? haha!) swear shes gonna kill me for this but screw. hee. she just totally ditched me again to watch her "EXCITING" tennis match which she took FOREVER to dwnload. haha that STOOOOPID girl.

ger says:my nose is gonna run when i run tomorrow

ger says:HAHAHHA

`__HAPPYSEAFRIENDS. lke a razor right across her heart says:
yeahh at least ure not running alone HAHAHA !

ger says:OMG

ger says:HAHAHAHHAAHHA

ger says:tt took me awhile to get

shiat i swear shes damn funny. shes literally the joke.. and unknowningly managed to cheer me up or well.. lightened up my mood UNLIKE YOU! oh well.. aint exactly the best day i had but im signing out. TEEBEE TIME blech im such a slacker. screw u.

2006-04-13T11:16:00.000+08:00

oouch. IM AT HOME!

hurr okaee so much for trying to study geog cos i end up blogging and talking to jo! (AKA PENGUIN) haha. GEOG SUCKS ! I TOTALLY AGREE! wish i could just eat up the damn notes and all the info wld go into my head.. CONTINUE WISHING. hurr
we're the rotting partners! well, with melpok too! but shes studying.. I HOPE. haha!

hmmm i cant wait to go to aud's place later! play mahjong and xbox? GONNA GET THRASHED BUT WHAT THE HACK. haha mommy's gone to stay at uncle's place for the night so WOOHOOO! =D hee. I NEED RETAIL THERAPY.

STEPH:haha steph doesnt under the big fat L on my forehead.. she only understands the CURRENT. right hon?(; ure FREAKING funny! tell me how much u get for maths k ! hurr. and justin's a friend... get those naughty thoughts outta ur head(;

fraser:EH! CAN U SAY MORE IN UR TAGS??? hurr. how was ur 2.4?

2006-04-10T21:51:00.000+08:00

OH I FORGOT TO SAY:

WE WONNN SC FOR C DIVV!!! <33
3-2.

they're the best. always will be =D

2006-04-10T21:50:00.000+08:00

READ BETWEEN THE LINES

gosh i need to stop fishing around but my mouth just blardee shoots off when im so stressed.
GEOG DOESNT MAKE ANY SENSE! i must as well photocopy the whole page of answers and stick it there

dumbass.

2006-04-08T11:42:00.000+08:00

freak u.

i cant put on that front anymore__ i'll break.
get outta my life

2006-04-05T16:28:00.000+08:00

im -itching about you. YES YOU!

BITE ME
blardee put off

2006-04-01T11:34:00.000+08:00

hmm went for expresso last night.. hmmm was rather good i guess. ELECTRICO =D haha. yupp.. got home arnd midnight-- went to newton with justin, gid and his friends to have dinner. NOTHING EVER TASTED THAT GOOD! i was seriously starving. anything would do. HAHA i overslept this morning again.. bah. made jun wei stand outside my house for duno how many donkey minutes.. OOPS! i was so dead tired la.. oh wells.

BRING THE WATCH TMR NICOLE NG OR I'LL SLAUGHTER YOU! AND NO SCRATCHES PLEASE! ___ knowing u. haha (;

i got a gut feeling that things aint as simple as it seems to be.. ure REALLAE REALLAE NICE.. GAHH. hate this mann.. u seem to be in lke with em.

2006-03-26T10:08:00.000+08:00

hmmm so much happened just overnight.
i believe HE spoke to me.. just keep quiet and listen carefully.

i guess we've gotta put God in everything we do. stop living your life your way- live it HIS way. i suppose its easy to say and talk is cheap but i believe that if we have the determination.. nothing's impossible.

a sacrifice__ early mornings.

2006-03-17T23:24:00.000+08:00

u dont even know that im unhappy

2006-03-17T22:52:00.000+08:00

i need You Jesus, come and rescue me
there's no other name by which i am saved
capture me by grace
i will follow You.

just came back from synergiz.. it was reallae good. knocked alot of sense into me.. and i mean ALOT. im not gonna rant about it here but ya. anw, nicc and i pigged out! HAHA. ice cream at MIDNIGHT? while watching sleepover (dun ask me why that show but ya). SEAN FARIS IS SUCH A HOTIEE. right nicc? and we slept at 3 plus.. nearly 4 in the morning. gosh.. GOOD JOB NIC (: tho U FELL ASLP FIRST AS USUAL! hurr. its great talking it out la..

btw nicc, im beating ya to it --WATCHING FAILURE TO LAUNCH TMR with happyseafriends =P

im outta here.

FRASER:im sure u can type more than that! =D and stop guilt tripping me! hurr.

2006-03-16T21:01:00.000+08:00

SAYY HELLOO TO NICC! =D

haha shes crashing my place for the night.. RUN AWAY KID! hurr. kdding ! went for lunch at marche and did window retail therapy.. quite sad but its better than nothing! HAHA. we had yummy rostii and SOFT-SHELL CRAB! yum yum YUMMM (: hee. bahh i saw many nice lacee tops.. got something for them suddenly. THEY'RE PRETTAYE. haha but i bought one yellow one when i was out with melpok ystd.. YOU HAVE TO AGREE ITS PRETTY! nicc says so too so it must be.

oh wells.

2006-03-15T11:06:00.000+08:00

I can tell that you don't know me anymore
It's easy to forget, sometimes we just forget
And being on this road is anything but sure
Maybe we'll forget, I hope we don't forget

gosh, two hours of maths can just kill me.. had tuition and i swear i owe junwei big time for explaining everything to me tho i was getting abit edgy cos it was so early in the morning. hurr. anw, gonna go catch final destination with melmel later.. that nicc's not coming cos got tuition. haha oh wells.. shes crashing my place tmrr night-- naughty naughty girl i wonder what u told them*. kdding ! haha.. its a bummer that theres nothing for u to drink ur sorrows away eh nicc? but its okae.. u can rant the whole night away-- not leaving out the fact that hell loads of f words wld come with it. SORE EARS MENN. hee.

im getting out of here..
*its starting to take a toll on us.. i dont want that.

2006-03-14T12:17:00.000+08:00

arrgg you can go clubbing and i cant just cos u dont like it. WHERES THE FAGGIN LOGIC?!

i care about your feelings so i dont go but.. doesnt mean im the party kinda girl means u can just go.. lke lke.. doesnt make sense ! oooouch i can feel my blood boiling. bahh. sooner or later im gonna just learn from nic and holl under the bed. haha! nic's supposedly "sick" eh? hurr. gonna go out with her and melmel tmrr =D

screw.. go club for all i care. okae i need to get off this damnn topic.. grr. hatee amaths men- spent nearly 2 hours onit and im not even half way done.. brains are not functioning. blabber blabber blob blob. im gonna go talk to mel.. going swimming later. THANK GOODNESS.

2006-03-11T22:58:00.000+08:00

OMG, I SWEAR MISS TEO AKA MRS SETO LOOKS AWESOME IN HER WEDDING GOWN ! its freaking pretty ! haha. the wedding wasnt all a biggy cum glamm thing but its simple in a nice way.. cosy.. GODLY-LIKE. hurr. its damnn sweet when they did they appreciation words towards their parents.. lke dude! the tchers sitting infront of us were crying ! okae.. miss teo was crying too but wad the hack. she has every right too COS ITS FREAKING SWEET! i seriously need to get a hold of myself man. haha but she and her husband's reallae compatible.. look reallae cute. haha

yupp.. oh my, us B2 girls sure eat alot.. hurr. totally gunned down all the chocolate eclairs.. NOW YOU KNW WWHERE ARE THE WEIGHT COME FROM! hee. than aft that still went to yoshinoya with teo, nicc, jamie,ying, tiff, tricia,yvonne and melpok for dinner ! BIG BIG APPETITE MAN! hurr. MEL ARE U GONNA START ON THE HERSHEY CHOCOLATES NOW ? =D ooohhh but im sorta dying of blisters now cos NICC DECIDED TO TAKE MY FLATS! and i ended up with the heels.. hurr. and i swear i hated the wind ! my skirt kept flying up! even ms teo laughed at me.. =P saw jason and mark at the wedding too. hee. lke what are you doing here mel.. reaction from jason. HAHA

anw, ms teo and her husband reallae proves that opposite attract.. hurr. AND THEIR WEDDING PHOTOS ARE DAMNN DAMN NICE ! she looks deadd good in it! guess shes got the natural smile which gives it a bonus but ya. hmmm they had this short scripture thing.. love is a gift. dont do things for your partner and always expect something in return- u'll be very disappointed. love him/her without expectations. i think its reallae cool.. oh wells. im going off ! mom's on it.. i'll post the pics next time.. LOVE!

are u gonna text me at 2 am again?

2006-03-02T19:40:00.000+08:00

WHERE'S MY BODYGUARD !
that reminds me. better go text him about tmr

2006-03-02T19:24:00.000+08:00

skl sucks. or well, ive been in a reallae reallae bad mood these few days. easily annoyed and i lost count of how many times i swore but what the hack. i feel terrible for shooting off but my tongue just slips and the weathers being a donkaye nowadays too. soo freaking hot ! swimmings the way men ! but i got full geog and half history to study for ! its so darn unfair cos only we have test ! the other humanities girls dont have tests! LIKE ZERO! other than lit.. BUT WHO NEEDS TO STUDY FOR LIT?! hurr. RIGHT NICC? (;

anyways, screww chem and physics cos its over.. im NOT thinking about it. pangsaii. im reallae reallae tired... and feeling reallae fat cos pigged out at nicc's today. HAHA. was watching the italian job till i FELL ASLP! till that extent. hurr. DOMINO'S STILL THE BEST (: it sure keeps u ENTERTAINED ! esp since theres CHOCO. erhem*. haha. im having a stoopid outbreak ! argh. hate the way im feeling now men. and i dun wanna think how screwed i will be when mr ling sees my maths homework. i din bother doing the last qn. 10 QUESTIONS IN ONE PERIOD? he must think we have brains like his.. i wish i do but DREAM ON! hurr.

oh wells.. it was reallae nice of *. to wait for me at the bus stop.. hurr. a listening ear was all i needed and that tight ***. yeah i guess thats what makes me feel better and a reason to smile - like what jas says. im glad i stuck around. alright enough of my rantings.. im outta here. <33

nicc: haha ! WATCH YOUR LANGUAGE NICC! hurr. OMG, I CANT WAIT TO GO SHOPPING THIS SATURDAY ! so have to find something nicee.. (: hee. tho i think ure not gonna agree with wad i find nice most of the time but screww. haha BI NI BO BO? (in chinese) its HILARIOUS ! haha. to think i thought u were talking about diapers ! haha <33

madhavi: HEYY HONS! things are going fine here... MARCH HOLS ARE COMING UP ! THAN NATIONALS ! *gasp. anw, HEYY NO FAIR YOU GET TO GOO PARTY ! AND GOO WILD ! haha im just kdding. <33>

2006-02-27T18:28:00.000+08:00

nicc's freakking funny ! omgg, NIC IM SO PROUD OF YOU! FOR THE FIRST TIME WHEN SOMEONE DIED-- YOU DIN CRY (: hee. esp since he's such a HOTTAYEE right? CHOCO! CHOCO! CHOCO! reminds me of chocobaby =p. HAHA. was over at nicc's place watching domino. i swear KNIGHTLEY'S hot ! haha! shes got such a.. seductive look yet she pulls of anything ! as in her clothes.. but seriously, now i knw why the shows m18/ nc16? whatever it is.

like dude im getting sore eyes at certain point of the show and the music director DONT KNOW HOW TO CHOOSE APPROPRIATE SONGS! ok maybe they are appropriate but.. oouch to the ear songs. =p i lost count of how many times they said the f word. like all they knw is that ONE word. HAHA. NICC ! u had better watch ur language too menn! hilarious when u were enjoying the last part of the movie when ur dad came home.. u shld have seen how u flipped ! HEE. wad a sight (; anw, i think the next person *. wld wanna whoop wld be u ! haha.. how cld u say *. not much of a flipping donkaye?! haha. terriblee girl.. eh uve yet to fill me in on why b^2 booboo's are annoying(: IM WAITING !

anw, went out with dad, mom, chris and brian with unclee aunttyy.. u get the picture. hurr. barcadi's a blast ! and that.. i duno whut light shiat beer they had. its wayy yummy(: i cldnt wake up this morning ! had to be yanked outta bed. OH YA ! screww physics menn.. i duno if i can pass. BAHH. okok ive gotta go make dinnerr.. funked out.

2006-02-26T14:02:00.000+08:00

im burnt ! grrr. there wasnt much sun on saturday yet im like.. red ! hurr. got an earful from my mom-- okae maybe more than a earful. hee. anyway, loads are running thru my mind now.. something i tried so hard to put at the back of my mind or even outta my mind just keeps coming back into my train of thoughts and hell is it annoying. what a crazy weekend it has been so farr.. but this aint a PRIVATE blog. (;

oh wells.. i better get off cos melmel's coming over soon and we're gonna go to hillington to play tennis. =p

can i let go of everything here and just go?

2006-02-21T22:38:00.000+08:00

bahh. I AM FEELING SO SOO SOOOO BAD ! he said something which hit me reallae hard.. im so sorraye sweetie. gosh i reallae need to learn to get a hold of myself. its like as tho everythings going heywire for me.. stoopid cip and geog ppt.

well, something to feel good abt was SWIMMING! right MELLY BELLY and NICC? hee. stoopid melmel go make me pick her goggles for her.. my ear drums nearly burst la ! hurr. i LOVEE SWIMMING ! another round on sat right mell! CANT WAIT! gtg.. <333

2006-02-20T21:48:00.000+08:00

bahh i am going BONKERS with nette going on and on about kw liking me. WHATEVER SWEETIE. when ure tired of teasing and repeating that a ka-zillion times.. tell me. NOW MY ENTRY IS ABOUT YOU LYNETTE! hurr.

hmmm i cant wait for tmr ! gonna go swimming with melpok tmrr aft skl ! hurr. like work those fats menn.. hee. gosh i totally got a lect from * todayy.. like seriously im freaking tired and was trying so hard to keep awake so drop it. hmmm anw im going off CAUSE A FRESH WATER ANIMAL AINT REPLYING.. and I AM GONNA GO CALL MELPOK! mellovesmel. rmb? so cheer up!

__im mood swing-ee again. i need my dose of chocs.

2006-02-06T19:51:00.000+08:00

HAHA. i stayed at home to SNEEZE instead. even got an mc for the next day ! HAHA. gosh nic, ure retarded ! haha. woon can become chew. only u are capable of such mispronounciation HEE.

anw, CHEER UP NICCCC !! rmb the note i left you? i forgot to add in that you will be a happy pangsai ! HAHA. dont give up so easily.. thats all i can say. you know me.. i stick to that so thats all the advice i can give u.. for now. till my brains start to function again HAHA. dont talk so much ah.. YOUR ATTENTION SPAN is shorter than mine ! hurr. ILOVENIC! NICLOVESME! dont u deny it (:

AN ENTRY JUST FOR YOU..<3

2006-01-30T13:03:00.000+08:00

KAHWOON'S A GAY ! (:

2006-01-21T09:43:00.000+08:00

you're the answer. (;

ahh nic's being annoying cos shes not replying me about how the book's coming about ! THE SHORT NOTE HAS TO GO THRU ME FIRST OKAE YOU NOTTIE NOTTIE MISCHEVIOUS GIRL ! haha. its breakfast time and she says shes out for lunch. =OP oh wells. THERES CHURCH LATERR! (: haha. meet shishi for her tu tu* before that HAHA.

yup. i gotta go grab my own breakfast so cya ! meeting justin at 1130 to study. <33>

2006-01-18T20:12:00.000+08:00

i'll bribe you with my love. HAHAHAHA im just kidding nic ! im losing it.. stoopid la ! trying to find the compre passage so i wont get fried by miss teo tmr. HAHA.

thanks nic ! i appreciate it oright ! JUST DONT TRY ANYTHING FUNNY ! THE BK'S DAMN EX.. CANT AFFORD TO SCREW UP! haha i knw u'll love to make * seem all so stoopid on the front cover ! hurr. THANKS JAS FOR COMING WITH ME TO GET THE MATERIALS.. hope ur mommy wasnt onto it. =Op. <33>

2006-01-12T20:42:00.000+08:00

im tired of acting as tho im fine... cos i reallae aint okae. wish time wld just stop and lemme have a damnn break ! its stoopid to ask for a break since its only the second week of skl but reallae.. ive got my own private work, skl work, trng and ive got new tuition too ! and some teachers* reallae make us feel so unappreciated.. even tho we stay back till so late just to get wadever they want done. grrr. maybe im just stressing myself out a little.. but idun wanna do things that i'll regret and i cant afford internal conflict-- i nearly went bonkers with the banner, geog research and quarrelling with u last night. seriously, i dont need all those. im tired of taking everything upon my shoulders.. sharing may help but its tiring to just say everything and bare ur hearts out. the word is trust i guess..

mel asked me how come i can act as tho everythings fine and talk to her* like nth happened.. i guess its cos i still want the friendship? im not gonna let it go just like that but reallae.. once the trust is broken its very hard to mend back. people change i guess.. but its quite hard to accept sometimes whut theyve becomed. i just dont wanna bring it up anymore.. ive got enough to handle.

the funkaye nights/days at ur place just slacking and watching u game. or the mornings no matter how short it maybe. tell me how to just only rmb the good times and not the bad times?? tell me.. teach me.. im all ears. actions speaks louder than words and i do notice the change in you.. for the better. you reallae care... you're taking initiative etc but i guess u do have to give me time to forget. forgive doesnt=to forget. im trying so hard my dear.. its just that ive never faced such a situation before and i swear it hurts so damn badly.

2006-01-01T15:35:00.000+08:00

HAPPY NEW FUNKED OUT YEAR SWEETIE ! <333

hurr. whoaa wad a crossover man.. HAHA. went out partying with huron,kenneth and met new friends (: (: joseph, justin and two others whom i reallae cant rmb their names. oops! HEE. yup.. went for the hip hop partyy at ngee ann.. haha thanks sam for the id--saved me much trouble with getting in. hee. but my mom totally busted me la.. as in my aunt called her and told her i wasnt with sam yada yada so she found out i was out partying and grounded me but what the hack-- skl's opening so it doesn reallae matter. enough of fun-- time for serious business man.. as much as i hate it. BAH.

yup.. i think i sorta took in a lil too much-- was trying to get a cab to rush home and i could feel myself go weak.. but it was a blast.. totally man. the music was DEAD good-- jas so needs to go man ! she'll prob have too much fun and faint (JOKING) but ya.. hip hop is so JASSY WASSY aint it? haha. had fun dancing with justin too.. ken shld just keep quiet about it now wld u? hee. gosh.. its the new year ! yesyes my resolutions--bahh. and i so have to keep to them.. like jolyn said-- i dun wanna go sec4 ! oh wells. ttyl sweets. (:

everytime i think about it*.. my heart just aches

2005-12-18T12:38:00.000+08:00

i know where my heart lies.. and it aint with you.

And all of these moments just might find a way into my dreams tonight
But I know that they'll be gone when the morning light sings
Or brings new things for tomorrow night you see
That they'll be gone too, too many things I have to do
But if all of these dreams might find their way into my day to day scene
I'd be under the impression I was somewhere in between
With only two, just me and you, not so many things we got to do
Or places we got to be, we'll sit beneath the mango tree now

2005-12-17T16:08:00.000+08:00

i wont deny i am disturbed by IT.

bahh. just came back from townn with airpok.. she owes me one ah ! help her think of so many ideas of christmas presents ! hurr. TUCKER CAP MEL! TUCKER CAP! hee. jkjk. (: (: hmmm i dunno.. the things YOU* do make me wanna just stick to the wall/ bang my head against the wall so many times. its an excuse-seriously. i dun even know why im putting in so much effort into this friendship.. reallae.

wish that "goodfriend" would hurry up and come back-- i miss my entertainer. i miss the way u make me feel better with all your sick comments. hee. hurry up hurry up hurry upp.. let it be tmr. hurr. jkjk. anw, i think i piss my fellow sea animal off with the im just kidding thing.. hmmm i duno la. <3>

if i had one wish, we would be lovers.

2005-12-12T22:22:00.000+08:00

hmmm its been ages since i blogged.. even the old layout doesnt open anymore. =OP. anw, had plenty plenty of funn in msia.. its just too much to talk about and im not in the mood.. gonna give a quick entry and call airpok.

i reallae wonder this feelings im going thru now-- who is it reallae going out to? saw nic's entry.. anyone whos dating now is just playing: but does that mean that wadever ure feeling.. or the feelings for that person is all fake? she got me thinking. i had just quite enough of holding onto something which isnt gonna happen.. its so diff to give up but yet sometimes ure just cornered and left with no choice.

u said u'll fight reallae hard for that one chance once ure prepared.. but have u all ever thought when will u knw when ure prepared? or is it just passion when that time does come? -- dont come promising anything if ure not sure of urself.. thats one thing for sure. u may think that thinking thru things is nothing and it doesnt cause any hurt: ure one dumb asswipe if u believe in that.

___gone for good*

2005-11-24T09:03:00.000+08:00

i cant believe federerr lost ! like hello ! aft 35 wins in a row ! considering he was injured and not recovered ! those people are heartless to make him play ! grrrrrr. nvm,, hes still world no 1 anw ! hurhurr. (:

bahh. theres nothing to update actually --weather has been like my moods. one min cold, next min hot. bleahh. stoopid time of the month --hate the frigging cramps! such an asswipe. *ellen's new invented word HAHA. oh wells, gonna go meet nic and rumage thru her cardboard before going down to sp. LOVES <3>

2005-11-19T11:23:00.000+08:00

friggin sensitive faggot.

hmmm such a screw-ee mood.. u never fail to pisst me off-- always acusing me of something i din do ! tell me who wldnt be pisst if someone did that to them ! its as tho everythings my fault.. i din knw i had so much power to screw ur mood. grrr.

anw, its saturday again ! time for church (: (: meeting darrell later for meatballs at ikea *yummy. than going for coos. yup ! get to talk talk to ellen bing bing too. (: theres reallae so many things to smile aboout so why do i bother letting those tears fall becos of u.. bugger. anw, IM GONNA WIN THE BET DARRELL --i knw * too well to knw that * still thinks its my fault and i shld be the one taking the first initiative. nvmm.. going over to grandpapa's place to play with gabbster (: loves <3

I warned you, I told you
I'd be right here without you-
But you didn't care
You told me I'd go nowhere
If I didn't have you
But where are you now?
I haven't seen you around
You're nowhere to be found
I wonder what happened to you
All the insecurities built inside of you
Must have just blown up
Thoughts of happiness only when you reminisce
'Cause now that things are bad
Ya think of what you could have had
Think of the years we spent with no money for the rent
from the bottom to the top
They stuck to their guns they'll never stop
Now everyone has changed
But somehow you stayed the same
And Life lessons have been learned
Your past came back and you got burned
What you've done you try to hide
It's time to swallow your pride
You'll never change that I can see
When you said:
"At least you're making money from me"
...and I wonder where you are sometimes
...and I wonder where you are right now

2005-11-17T14:20:00.000+08:00

ure such a buggerhead.

2005-11-11T18:02:00.000+08:00

YAYY !! we dint have to do sprints today.. HEE. but ran 8 rounds instead-- well a break from sprints i guess. thought he was nice enough not to make us run at first but we cld just wished longer. bleah. anw, sat at kap with dawnnae and jing for like 4 hours talking about everything.. hmmm i din knw my juniors were so matured.. hee. PROUD OF YOU (: (:

im so dead tired.. not only physically but i wanna sleep ! woke up at like 540 and met chris at 620 this morning. i was so blur i walked into the toilet door. =OP. yeah and smart me went to watch teebee, leaving the webcam on and chris saw things he shldn have ! HAHA. not to add i was sitting in the most UNGLAM way ! hahaha it was hilarious -- to him la ! bet he had so much fun laughing at me freak out etc..

nic:GOODNESS! are u that bored to do that question random weird duno whut thing !! anw, YOU STOOPID GIRL !! U NEVER GO FOR TRNG !! U DIN HAVE TO RUN !!! =Op. haha so how was the "doctor's appointment"? HAHAHA. somemore amaths nvr go.. ure the best man ! trust me. hee. okokaee ttyl seeya on mon I HOPE ! dun miss me ! (: <3

jasveeK: YA LA YA LA ! VERY SMART LA.. u worked out whut it is. i think ure just lucky and u just knw me too well u goose! hee. so hows the chem re-exam? and pls tel me u managed to studyy last night i hope? yup. and yes ur sis so take a long time to get off the phone !! hahaa i was like waiting... and waiting. hee. ttyl yeah? love u cheeky monkey ! (:

2005-11-10T19:28:00.000+08:00

hmm IGNORE THE SUICIDE THING ORIGHT??? the layout's reallae nice etc but its only that part which is so outta the blue and so whut i dun mean to do !!! hee (:

yup ! i was SO BORED TODAY i resorted to finding a new layout for my blog.. hmmm trng has been tiring this week--came home and slept for 2 hours everytime. yeahh duno whether to go for trng tmr, im reallae reallae tired and legs are so so so sore. literally. aft the 3rd round u feel like sitting on the floor and refusing to move ur bum. i so prefer long dist. anw, enough about trng.. like melpok was saying: its becoming a chore and a dread. i duno.. i hope this "period of time" wld just get over.

i was just thinking.. everyone does stoopid things but is it as stoopid as whut ive done? i cant make up my mind whut to do.. i cant bring myself to do whut i want to do. i knw u support me cos im ur fren but the truth is that u still dun reallae approve of it. you dun need to spell it out--i knw. and im aware that im taking such a big risk yet why do i even consider taking it up stil. sometime i feel like a fool.

sotong.fishie

2005-11-07T21:52:00.000+08:00

i dont know what i reallae want..

Have u ever missed someone and felt terrible because u think that he/she doesn't miss u?
Almost everyone has..Missing someone is terrible but at the same time, a sweet feeling.
U will be sitting around wondering if umeant anything to him/her.
Thinking if he/she ever cares about u.
Rushing to the phone once it rings,hoping that it's him/her.
Looking out of the window hoping thathe/she will surprise u by appearing downstairs.
Sitting in front of the television butthinking of her/him missing the final episode of yourfavourite show.
Laying on your bed, thinking of the lasttime u went out together.
Thinking of how nice it will be to situnder the stars again, talking about everything,your dreams, plans, future.
Logging on to the internet hoping to seehim/her online.
When u realise that he/she isn't onlineand did not return your page, u will start worryingifhe/she is okay.
Missing someone is a way of growing up iguess.
It exposes u to loneliness.
It teaches u how to cope with being lonely and let u know that there is actually a feeling known as emptiness.
Sometimes it feels good to miss someone.
U know that u really care and u indulge in the feeling of loving/caring for him/her.
But missing someone and not knowing ifhe/she is feeling the same is terrible.
U feel as if u are being left alone.
So if u miss someone, tell him/her andlet them know.
At the same time, ask if they miss u.
Don't let the feeling of missing someonebecome jealousy or paranoid.
If u are the one being missed and u knowit, let the other party know.
if u miss him/her too, tell them.
Don't let them wait.
Dont let pride or fear stop you, be bold.

hmmm i got this from some message thing.. its reallae true? if u think about it. yup.. hmmm my fitness level sucks ! bleah. such a sucky day ! run.. sprints and by the time u get into court--ure half dead. ahh i dun like today's trng.. utterly screwed my mood. like we must do better and we know we can? hmmm i shall cut the crap. im not reallae in the mood.. <3

2005-10-31T19:23:00.000+08:00

"HEY MR KOH!! MY HANDS SHAKING !!! MY WHOLE BODY'S SHAKING !! I'VE GOT SPASM !!! CAN I GO CANTEEN TO REPLENISH MY SUGAR LEVEL??"

haha!! co's hands were shaking so mr koh let her go take choc so her sugar level will go up or duno whut.. than me and jo went into courts shaking vigourously and tried our luck too ! haha. it was hilarious.. (: (: haha ! oh wells. i loveeeeeeeeeeeeee my bruddaa&my sista&..&... jkjk. i loveee jasveek!! and my lil' brudda (: (: you all just never fail to put a smile on my face dun cha? being all so retarded and lame and reallae sweet with words etc.. haha. I LOVEEE EUUU plenty plenty ! (:

I'm a bad ass girl in this messed up world
I'm a sexy girl in this crazy world
I'm a simple girl in a complex world
A nasty girl, you wanna get with me?
You wanna mess with me?

2005-10-27T16:09:00.000+08:00

gosh i feel so so so sick cos of the drinking competition we had in skl today.. hello??!! how come marigold degraded down to boo bee? or it is bu bee? i have no clue. it taste like chemicals+colouring+sugar+drain water !! D I S G U S T I N G !! our face looked so constipated while drinking it.. sheesh. duno how those girls can stuff 3 at one go in their mouths.. DONT U ALL TASTE ANYTHING ?!

B L E A H. ive been to the wash room 4 times today alrdy.. its killing me. oh wells. brian quoted me smth : why bother to show care and concern for someone who doesn appreciate it instead of returning it to those who care for u more than anything else. keeps gng thru my head.. anw, LAST DAY OF SKL TMR ! its quite unbelievable that the skl year had just past just like that? feel that i din give my best and reallae could have done better.. nic had to remind me how much time was wasted on *. which is as much as i hate to admit it.. true.

oh wells. the report book sucked la... well comments were fine and everything results were not. wonder what my parents will say-- im not looking forward to it. im gonna go watch style doctors.. im so bored till im resorted to that. <3>

__its not the mornings aint enough time to let u clear things up but its you that dun even bother trying. wadever ** did.. i cant quite understand why u seem so upset/annoyed at it. im sure he din mean anything bad. nvm.

2005-10-25T21:01:00.000+08:00

Y O U

those sleepless nights.

2005-10-23T22:52:00.000+08:00

romans 12:2

do not conform any longer to the patterns of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind.

yup. thats the correct version of the verse. hee i got it wrong

2005-10-23T22:17:00.000+08:00

nette: LEAVE UR URL SWEETIE !! and Y E S .. im sure u miss me too (: (:

hmm feeling glad about finally making that decision.. melpok+ken:thanks for being there and knocking it into my head that it was the right thing to do.. and for stopping the doubts that flooded my head. <3>

anw, went for new creation service today.. i think its ridiculous to actually have to queue up to get into a church.. for a service but well... it was worth it i guess? the sermon was reallae good !! pastor was hilarious.. i wasnt even close to shut eye. considering i only slept for 4 hours the night before. yup. went for high tea at raffles.. in all just spent the whole day with my parents. felt reallae good aft such a long time of no family outing together alone cos of exams and my dad not being arnd.. hee (: (:

we ate sooooo much at the soup restaurant.. GARLIC CHICKEN !!! *puckpuck* haha !! mann.. im feeling all soooooo fat ! haha. oh ya ! caught transporter with darrell ystd.. yes it was good but the fighting was abit too fake? smth like a english version of a jackie chan movie?? yeah. and darrell's W E I R D.. he likes to invade other ppls privacy and see them make out !! gross.. haha ! nahh cos we were just walking pass the orchard mrt there.. and yeah as u knw.. i dun need to spell it out. and for crying out loud he was freaking me out abt going to find another head there !! yeah la.. find his there la.. i killed him. HAHA.

oh oh.. lets tell u abt the sermon. its quite powerful? as in.. his msg was reallae clear that all things are possible if u just believe in God ? and u say wad u want to see.... cos God gave us the power to have what we want. He choose to give us the power He had cos we are His children. believing is the main key to achieving.. sorta. yup.(: (: and we shldnt care wad others say and stick to what we believe. romans smth smth says do not be conformed by the world but be transformed by the word? err smth along that line.. my memory is failing me and im not very gd at the verses thingy but ya. okokae im gng to go slack now.. im getting bored online. hee. <3>

2005-10-20T14:36:00.000+08:00

The end of the world's in front of me
Hard to believe all I see
It comes so close but pulls away
To let me stay another day
It's one chance in your lifetime
But it won't be the last time
It seems there's always the next hill to climb
And you know there's a lifetime
The things that I see never end
Trickin' my mind to just pretend I understand what's happening
When other's doubt, you still believe
It's one chance in your lifetime
But it won't be the last time
I swear there's always the next hill to climb
And you know there's a lifetime
Changing what I once thought
Letting go of what I once fought
There's a life that you need to find
All that surfaced has changed my mind
The end of the world's in front of me
Hard to believe all I've seen

hmmm i take back the crazy eccentric mood i had in the morning.. sigh. after we got back the papers and those news.. it totally just screwed everything. who said mgs was that perfect with smarty pants in it.. yeah i guess there are.. definitely. but it doesnt mean all of us are.. feel reallae terrible to see them so sad and everything--

be it failure or not meeting ur expectations. guess it was expected of me to fail my physics... im totally numb to it. oh wells.. just believe that its not the end of the world... retain or dropping a subject--well it may just be God's will? tho its the hard and painful way but im sure something good will come out of it..

___ i wish you would just disappear from my life. --it wld save me so much trouble

2005-10-20T09:18:00.000+08:00

hmmm im in skl now... did some stoopid SEM survey thing which makes no sense at all. oh wells.. had a gd sleep during half hist just now.. haha. AS USUAL ! (: HAHA-- NIC JUST DIED AT ICY TOWER AGAIN !! (: (: okaee shes gonna kill me..

anw, getting back eng and chinese later... plus that stoopid combine humanities.. sigh. i wanna do well !! like who doesnt.. haha. fine !! melpok ! fine !!! she's standing by me watching me type.. how retarded is that. hahaha jkjk. (: (: hmmmmmmm....... hmmmm...... id unoo whut to say la !! haha. my right ankle is swollen like a big fat dumpling.. waddahell. sucks sucks sucks !!!! okokaee gtg.. <3>

2005-10-18T18:11:00.000+08:00

one last try -- one last chance. ___ only to get hurt again.

one year older means one year wiser... isit reallae true?? it better be. im blardeee screwed for all my subjects.. din reallae meet my expectations other than emaths.. and i passed geog. =Op surprisingly but ya. S I G H . forget it.. im not blogging.. no mood.

I HATE YOU;;;

jane:hey dearie.. i din pangsehh u !! i had to get things done on sunday so went with my parents for service instead !! sorrayeee laddyy !! nvmnvmm still got this sunday and every other sunday !! HAHA. miss u plenty !! dunnn ignore me ! hhaha *winks. <3

2005-10-16T13:56:00.000+08:00

i think im losing my mind.. was sitting infront of the teebee crying while watching F U L L H O U S E last night.. its reallae sweet la !! sighh.. korean shows areeee soo meloodrama-mama but its got a nice plot tho. hee. was being entertained by chris until he fell aslp on me !! i said gd night 2 times and he still went uhhhh.. whut a great guy right? sheesh. hee.

oh wells.. was at hillington-- went to get the guitar from chris and watch quidam. its reallae cool. they're freaking muscular.... lines and lines of muscle line. =Op and man.. feel so unaccomplished !! like... they're our age or even younger ! haha. im not a failure chris* anw, i swear i dun have co-ordination men.. hee. legs+hands do not work together.. yeah.

__be it in reality or tv dramas--we always fall for the wrong person. its so hard to control ones feelings... its not that simple as a big fat NO. u'll probably be in self denial..

p.s. THANKS FOR INTRODUCING NEW SONGS CUM BAND TO ME !! --sotong. [walking on broken glass]

2005-10-14T09:47:00.000+08:00

yeah more pictures !! haha.. amanda and melpok went too !! thanks mandy for burning ur finger cos of the cake.. hee. mellee over here dun dare to light candles.. haha. finefine.. loser loser.. shutttup !!! haha. (: (: ystd was a blast.. reallae. and the boatman prob thinks mgs girls are so wild.. haha.

that pic up there of me and jas.. dun ask me why we did that.. FUN LAUGHTER PEACE AND JOY... yup. she wanted to look like pink panther.. =Op. hahaa okokae gtg... gng out.. <3 <3 <3

2005-10-14T09:25:00.000+08:00

happy birthdayy jasveek !! okae im one day late but oh wells... we went out ystd !!!! (: goal was reallae good.... haha !! nic and jasveek were like hugging each other in excitement... haha. oh wells.

we went bonkers.. hee went for bum boat ride and started screaming out loud into... the air? hee. we were quite lucky to get the whole boat to ourselves... (: (: JASVEEK !! HOPE U LIKED U CAKE... BALLOOONN.. and the reptile stuff toy nic gave u ! (; haha. had a blast right right?? thanks to who?? jkjk.

2005-10-10T16:35:00.000+08:00

mmm... physics paper a surprise? i think not. i COULD DO THE PAPER i suppose... but i crapped it up... took wadever values they gave and just came up with some crap answer. ah hack i dun wanna think about it.. i guess i din put in much effort for physics cos its been a rather discouraging subject but i duno... its annoying cos i think im gng to be the few that fails... the only one ! =Op. okae i promise u im not gonna think anymore.. sigh.

anw,,,,, went to play basketball with melpok and jasveek just now ! hee. more like shooting than dribbling but oh wells. they bully me la !!! cos im like nubbbee to playing basketball.. no ball sense at all ! haha. yada yada.. go ahead and laugh... bleah. oh wells. got jasveek aka CHEEKY MONKEY a new basketball--early bday present. HAHA her reaction made it all worth while men.. she couldnt even figure that it was meant for her until i said so... sheesh. that dear gong gong girll... hee. (: (: glad u liked it !! (:

Im sick and tired of this silly game
dont think that Im the only one here to blame
its not me whos been going round slamming doors

mellee_____*

2005-10-07T12:36:00.000+08:00

hmmm dont ask me whats with the layout.. haha. just thought it was sorta cool so yup. sigh AMATHS WAS FREAKING SCREWED !!!! hope paper2 wld be better or im so dead.... like screwed beyond hope. bleah.

i shldnt be slacking but my brains just cant function.. waiting for jasveek to get done in skl than going for tuition... melPOK's sittting infront of my tv laughing... =OP SHES GOING BONNKERS... literally. sigh.. the exams are almost over??? wish i wld do well but i dont dare set any expectations.. not after ive done the papers. hope for the best i guess? like what melPOK always says..

Now everytime I see you
I pretend I'm fine
When I wanna reach out to you
But I turn and I walk and I let it ride
Baby I must confess
We were bigger than anything
Remember us at our best
And don't forget about us

mel<3nathanthehottie.>

2005-10-02T18:54:00.000+08:00

): ): ):

omgOODNESSSS im going bonkers... crazy--anything but being mentally sound. i cant sit there studying anymore.. and the stupid msn isnt working !!!! or isit just my com..? ah hack ! geography sucks sucks sucks SUCKS !!! gosh... im praying so hard everything ive studied wld stay in my head and i can apply it tmr.. bleah. BUTTERFLIES IN MY TUMMY AGAIN !!! sigh.. mental breakdown.. seriously.

How could you let somebody lay where I layed?
How could you give him everything that we made?
How could you call him all the names that u used to call me?
How could you how could you just forget bout me?
How could you teach him all the things I taught You?
How could you put him up to the Ghetto Karmasutra?
How could you put me in the back and give him the front seat?
How could you how could you just forget bout me?

(Girl i tried to...) Give u everything
Can't believe the ways u repaid me
(Girl u...) Had it all
But i guess my all wasn't good enough for you
(Baby I've...) Accepted it
And I aint gone trip
Girl im movin on
(Sometimes I give...) Up and think that another mans gonna get the one I made 4 me

this songs damn nice... sweet. :) p.s. JASVEEK CANT SING !! SHES SINGING TO IT NOW !=Op

2005-09-23T20:49:00.000+08:00

:) :) :) :)

2005-09-20T20:56:00.000+08:00

ahhhhhhhhh i hate shows like that !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

p.s. the guys a dead hotttie. :)

whuts wrong with me ! stop twirling me around your little finger --pouring hot and cold water as and when u like it. whut is reallae going thru your mind... was that pic to spite me? whut do u feel deep inside?? it sucks to like guys like you. for crying out loud, u dont even knw im talking about u and have no clue about wadever things.

__im outta here

2005-09-19T17:35:00.000+08:00

**hey ladiee, drop it down, just wanna see you touch the ground
dont be shy girl go bananza --shake your body like a belly dancer

ahh i loveee the song belly dancerr !! (: (: THANKS TO THAT JASVEEK CALL LA ! haha. anw, that pig is so screweed cos she has not done her punjabi hmwrk right? *winks. anw, thanks for sending me all those songs... SHAKE SHAKE SHAKE IT OFF... (:

anw, im supposed to be studying now cos ive got some formal dinner tonite yet theres a physics test tmr... im reallae screwed. gotta do the wake up at 4 thing again.. sigh. I DONT WANNA WAKE UP !!! (jas hears that every morn.. haha)

well.. was talking to melpok just now and she keeps making me contradict myself !! maybe i am in self denial? or.. maybe not? --i reallae wanna know whats on your mind etc but guess i'll find out everything only after exams huh?? whut if its a letdown? whut if.. whut u said nearly 2 months ago wasnt whut u reallae felt? --am i holding onto something which isnt even there? AH FORGET IT--im supposed to be studying so i am gng to do that. loveloves dearies <3

*jasveek !!!!!!!!!!! tuition? =Op

2005-09-16T20:07:00.000+08:00

jasvEEK's THE CHEEKY MONKEY !!

haha. HOW CLD U FORGET WE WERE SUPPOSED TO GO FOR TUITION U DING DONG ! anw, take care yeah? GO FOR PUNJABI SKL ! *winks. yeah.. and forgoodness sake.. stop listening to those "soapy" love songs that makes you... feel wacky/winky/wimpy?! jkjk. WISH ME LUCK FOR ORAL ALRIGHT??? doubt they'll ever use music topic again so cross fingers-- its smth easy/of my interest. hee.

WAKE ME UP AT 4 AM DEAR !!! and rmb... DONT FALL ASLP !! must study !! (: (: (: (:

P.S. byebye nic !! have fun at the wedding diner.. <3

2005-09-13T21:53:00.000+08:00

okay.. im in a very dull mood? black.. white.. grey.. thats mel's colour for now? hmm todays just one of those days where.... the stupid think about life mood hits you and totally screws everything else.

anw, it sucks... 17 more days to exams and i totally wasted the whole day cos i slept thru it. yeahyeah mel's a pig.. SO ARE YOU ! jkjk. okokae my dad wanna use the com.... and melpok's on the line.. ttyl. LOVES. <3

2005-09-05T19:42:00.000+08:00

hmm i better update before my blog goes reallae dead and before NIC GETS PHYSICAL WITH ME !! hahaha. *winks. okae i swear nic wld kill me when she sees this but yup. EXAMS ARE COMING !! gosh.. time passes damn fast. and i hope it continues and the exams wld be over soon.. sigh. i cant stand the damn stress that AUNTY is giving me --never felt so horrid before. she shld feel honored.

i dont know la.. i dont deserve this? whut did i do to become a distraction?? and forgoodness sake ive got morals !! shes making me feel so so guilty and i reallae duno how long more can i hold on.. lke nic said: is he reallae worth it??? i dun **** a guy just to end up "baby sitting" him !! hes not 5 !! hes 15 !!!! i wished she wld respect her son.. im doing all this cos i respect her but do she even respect me??? from the way shes coming from... she reallae seems very fierce.. "accusive".. she doesnt even knw the real me !! lke duh--. shes assuming.. sheesh.

IS THIS WORTH IT????????????? --its driving me bonkers. im not gonna let this affect my studies !! ive got my own responsibilities alrdy and got enough on my hand to handle !!! i wish he'll grow up and realise his studies do not only concern him !! apparently he dunno his mom well enough and vice versa. wish i could tell him off and knock some sense into him...

feel reallae pressurized... i wish i cld be irresponsible. =(

2005-08-25T22:57:00.000+08:00

because of you i never strayed away from the side walk
because of you i learned to play it on the safe side.

2005-08-11T20:56:00.000+08:00

hmmm screw geog and amaths test today. literally screw it. im so gonna fail amaths--dun even knw whut i wrote forgoodness sake !! and geog--even if i pass, it'll be damn low marks. ah heck.. shall stop talking about it. promised jas-tofu.

yup.. WE'RE DAMN ACCOMPLISHED TODAY !! finished everything at tuition la !!! stayed for 3hours !! *pats my shoulder* hurhurx. yup. i cant believe jas asked mr yee how come the question is like that??? cos its given?? hahaha !! i mean.. where got such thing as how come the qn is set lke that?? hahaa !! i laughed till i cried la !! hee. we were making the most noise in class.. *oops.

oh wells.. the cruise was reallaee gd. slacked so much.. now u knw why i screwed up todays test. hmprh. yeahh soo fun !!!! I MISS MY EYE CANDY !!!!! ENGLANDS SO FARAWAY. *pouts* [nic+mel+jas u get whut i mean] haha. wad a way to get to knw someone huh? roll the trolley bag over his foot. haha. played bingo.. swim&swim.. room service and loads of "drinks". hahaha. thank goodness for joooOOOOoo. (: (: parents are also gonna kill me for my phone bill --msged overseas. darnn. loveloves dear !! ttyl.

--am i reallae over it?

2005-08-04T20:21:00.000+08:00

I read a story just the other day
About the way you healed blind man,
made him say here I stand crying out to you
all i need is faith to see a miracle in me

hmmm i din do as well as i wanted to for geog.. bleah. freakin disappointing. anw, FESTIVAL OF PRAISE TMR TMR TMR !! (: (: (: hee. gng for it i guess.. duno who yet. haha !! my dear son cum daughter of mine (tiff.timmy) still haven found who she gng with.. yup. I HOPE NAT CAN GO TOO!! *CROSS FINGERS* hurhurx.

yup. im gng on a cruise this long weekend !! haha. parents abit dingdong so yeah.. take some time off from things.. hee. BUT AINT U PROUD OF ME NIC,JAS,MEL&NAT? im getting over it... well at least better and u knw that. (: (: thanks for hearing me yak+yak sometimes.. but dun worry. ur effort's paying off. haha

oh ya.. nic took the wrong bus ystd !! tell me la ! where got people take the bus w/o looking at the bus no.??? shes damn blurr.. literally. hee. she got everyone staring at her cos she said shit too loudly and dropped to take a cab. haha whut a sight *winks.

galv:HEYY !! i was not crapping with him !! crap with him in whut sense??? ohhhhh sonic fest was great !! (: (: u going for festival of praise this weekend?? yeah.. btw, was it u who gave him my no? haha i still haven figured who did but nvmm.. yup. hope ur mom's getting better alright?? keep u all in my prayers. (: reply reply !

2005-08-01T20:36:00.000+08:00

i promise i'll sock u if i could.. im reallae not in the mood to talk. stop yakking on and on like as tho ure my mother. dont treat me like a llil child that was born ystd.. i knw whuts right and wrong. sheesh. its my life--thanks for ur advice but no thanks again. u dont everything abt it so just shuush.

sonicfest2005 was reallae reallae gd other than it was drizzling in the day on saturday but other than that.. yup. had loads of fun... haha !! jumped and jumped till my legs were sore.. throats too. hee. me&natnat went all the way to the front--ear drums were blocked aft that. haha. yeahh and im damn smart la... i totally forgot to do heymaths.. so handed up late and got a zero tho i got everything correct. oooooo thats so annoying. bleah

sighh i dont knw whuts with me la.. okae well im half way there to "success" [nic+jas+nat+mel would get whut i mean] but... i hafta admit theres smth in there still thats been bugging on me. i thought to myself.. what reason do u have to lie to me abt the *. thing?!! sympathy?? thats so not euu. but it just seems so unreal till the extent of i dun believe it.

2months --will anything change? i wonder =op. loveeeuu dearies !! <3>

2005-07-27T21:51:00.000+08:00

ooooo sonic fest starts tmr !! hee. going for it since frii got no test or wadever... at least to whut i knw la. HAHA. im that forgetful..=Op. anw, been slping in skl the whole day, hist e. and during cL paper. seriously... you cld do the paper in 1 hour la. haha. nic fell aslp... and i mean literally in deep slp. hee. WHILE I TRIED TILL SLP TILL SOMETHING KEPT GNG THRU MY HEAD. bet nic will say: i wonder whut. HAHAHAH.
nic thinks shes damn gd la.... but i wonder whut was she doing at 545 early this morning. haha. shes gonna kill me if she sees this but nvm.

galv:leave ur link !! haha and even if i link u.. if u have tried--my links dun work !! hahaa. i kinda suck at doing this kinda blog stuff. yeahh i knw they're performing etc on saturday.. will go watch ! (: err counsellor?? haha. whut are u supposed to be doing?? btw, where will u be? go find u or smth... yup.

three strikes and ure out --isit that easy?

2005-07-26T21:16:00.000+08:00

ure reallae odd. ure making me go crazy with all this weird actions.... u knw everything's not settled yet in whut sense?? but the best thing is.. u dont knw whut to do about it. URE TOO LAZY TO THINK ABOUT IT. wld u just be nice to me and stop leaving things hangin by deciding on whut to do this once?? one min ure screaming ur heads off.. the next ure so nice by lending me ur umbrella or drawing pigs and referring them to me. P.S. I AM NOT A PIG.

i wanna be like nic.. in some way. she lets go so easily and when she says screw it she reallae does it. well thats whut i see la. =Op. AGREED TOFU??? or maybe not. anw, i better call her to remind her to bring her visors or shes so dead w mr koh tmr.

galv: hmmm spiritually disciplined in what sense? read the bible everyday?? i read HIS word etc.. but somehow only at times do they speak to me? lke i cant relate to wadever i read sometimes cos im reallae experiencing it? i knw and i am holding onto/turning to HIM but it reallae is more than prayers. HOWS UR MOMMY BTW? been keeping her in my prayers. oh oh !! u gng for sonic fest?? (:

And the only time, the only time I ever saw Him run
Is when He ran to me, took me in His arms
Held my head to His chest, said my son's come home again
Looked at my face, wiped the tears from my eyes
With forgiveness in His voice he said son, do you know I still love you
It caught me by surprise, brought me to my knees
When God ran

2005-07-25T19:53:00.000+08:00

congrats my dear.. u hit the no. 1 position on the hurt list.

im reallae going bonkers. can those stoopid physics fats just get into my head and stay there? im sick and tired of forcing myself to study when i cant even give my 100percent focus. hell with everything. reallaee.

u always say i presume/assume.. whos the one assuming/presuming now?? i am so not together with ** but u insist that i am. hes only a lil brother for goodness sake! okaee.. it is my fault that i jumped into that solution and did not even give u a chance but i dun deserve all those reprimanding/scolding. i knw ure pisst etc but that doesnt give u the right to shoot of f words etc !! and u even told me freak euu. thanks loads..

instead of salvaging things.. u scream at me w/o considering my feelings.. whos the one being insensitive here?? and i duno how to handle our issues anymore ! yes i duno whut u go thru.. but do u knw whut i go thru then?? i was rash but i wasnt impatient... u duno how tolerant ive been and i waited in many ways. thing u cldnt do now.. i let them pass and say wait till ndp's over etc. do u reallae think im always that happy?? but yet u cant expect me to sulk everyday.. deep inside u so duno how i feel.

ure the one that seems happy. like real ur nick was about me.. if it was it wldnt be whut it still is now. sometimes the feeling of wanting u back hits me hard and i break.. but yet i knw its impossible. look at whut things turn out to be now.. there was a chance until u blew it ystd. you went to the extreme of hurting me ystd..

I was your girl
Gave you my world
My everything
But you wouldn´t see
I had your back
I backed you up
Whatever I did
Was never enough

2005-07-24T15:14:00.000+08:00

banging on your front door.
my guts spilled on the floor.
my hands and knees are bruised.

hmmm i just got stuck in the church's lift. gosh the lady in the life was freakin out la... hahaha. me and melpok kept laughing tho.. so sadistic. =OP. anw, sigh. I HATE YSTD !! it was one of those * days... everything and i mean everything literally reminded me of whut i was running away from. oh wells. i finally got my new racket.. i've gotta learn to stop breaking them. hee.

friday's training was.. i duno. yeah i could do the drill etc but i lost my temper in court for the first time. duno whuts with me but slammed the racket into the back glass wall. think nic+jo were lke wth.. cos i dun norm blow up. AHHH THAT WONG YANG BROKE MY GUITAR STRINGS !!! its like psyche la ! we were talking about it only a few days ago than he broke them YSTD !! called me during tuition to tell me and i think i said WHAT too loudly.. =Op.

okokae gtg... type out physics notes. loves <3>
p.s. JASVIR !! U DIN LEAVE UR LINK!!! HOW TO SEE UR BLOG ??

2005-07-20T20:54:00.000+08:00

hmm i lovee those two songs !! they're freaking nice ! hee. i duno why but im suddenly very spiritually high? lke.. i reallae want another encounter? to recharge and bring me back on track. to be whom HE wants me to be.. and the usual me once again. anw, YOU ALL HAVE TO GO FOR SONIC FEST !! hee. it seems as tho is gonna be real good.. aftall they're making a big hoo-haa about it. yup.

oh wells. another thing.. i duno la. but cant *. just handle things in a more mature way? lke as tho dao-ing me can settle things and lke.. dun u think we've been quarrelling way too often nowadays? isnt that a sign? and i've been holding on for very long and im tired. i guess i do have my expectations but for u i bend them and i give in... but it just aint good enough for u. i guess its time for us to say goodbye.. but u'll always have a place to urself in ***'s<3.

loveu all darlings !! im hungry.. and im not feeling well. loves <3>

2005-07-20T20:47:00.000+08:00

And the only time, the only time I ever saw Him run
Was when He ran to me,
Took me in His arms,
held my head to His chest
And said "My son's come home again".
Looked in my face, wiped the tears from my eyes
With forgiveness in His voice
He said "Son, do you know I still love you?"
It caught me by surprise when God ran

The day I left Home,
I knew I'd broken His heart
I wondered if Things would ever be the same,
Then one night, I remembered His love for me

And down that dusty road, ahead I could see
It was the only time, the only time I ever saw Him run
Was when He ran to me,
Took me in His arms, held my head to His chest
And said "My son's come home again".
Looked in my face, wiped the tears from my eyes
With forgiveness in His voice
He said "Son, do you know I still love you?"
It caught me by surprise, It dropped me to my knees
When God ran

Holy God, Righteous One Who turned my way
Now I know, You've been waiting
For this day

2005-07-19T21:25:00.000+08:00

In the secret
In the quiet place
In the stillness
You are there

In the secret
In the quiet hour
I wait only for You
Cause, I want to know You more

I want to know You
I want to hear Your voice
I want to know You more
I want to touch You
I want to see Your face
I want to know You more

I am reaching for the highest goal
That I might receive the prize
Pressing onward
Pushing every hindrance aside
Out of my way
Cause, I want to know You more.

2005-07-17T21:52:00.000+08:00

new layout --thought the boy,girl thingy was quite cute. hee.

BUT DONT ANYHOW THINK THAT I LOVE YOU'S ARE MEANT FOR SOMEONE.. i just haven figured how to change them.. =Op.

2005-07-13T21:29:00.000+08:00

the things we said..
the things we did..
came back to me again and made me smile

ignore my past entries alright? lke nic+jasvir etc said.. they think my screws are reallae loose but ya. i guess im feeling better.. at least i knw whut im gonna do. stop running away from it cos ive stop chasing the solution. u dun have to run--its not necessary. yeah. digress abit: I PASSED MY HEYMATHS BY PLAYING EENII-MIINEE--MO !! (: haha. as usual it was freaking hard cos mr ling set it. nvm.

hmmm i guess i shld just appreciate whutever we have now. yup. i reallae dun wanna carry the heavy load of wadever finding solution thingy. im tired too.. guess it'll come in time la? hope so. anw, i need to go study ! reallae shldnt be online now.. hee. love loves <3

2005-07-11T21:21:00.000+08:00

it seems as tho im making u reallae unhappy.. whatever tears or no tears. i cant reallae believe one of the reasons ure holding on for... i tried so hard to hold back the tears. im guilty of causing u all this pain.. so whats the point of me still being in ur life? u'll get everything u want.. if only i wasnt in ur life.

i cant stand the way im feeling inside. i wanna talk to u.. i knw i love you but if ure reallae that unhappy becos of the things that i did not intensionally done than... maybe i shld disappear. aft awhile... u'll let go.. u'll grow to love someone else.. someone else thats way better than me and someone that wont cause u to lose anything.

--maybe i shld give trinity some thought.

2005-07-08T20:21:00.000+08:00

HAHAHAHA meowmeow's reallae farnie !! she made me laugh and laugh till i cried okay !! i bet all those ppl at the bus stop and in e bus thot that we were mad.. literally. HAHA. quotes from
nic !!

nic: kill me !
me:BANG !! oops.. i missed !! HAHAHAHA.
nic:drop dead la !
me:oh.. go jump off the building
nic:i said i wanted to drop dead.. not FALL DEAD !! hahahaha.

there are so many others larh.. but i cant reallae be bothered to take time to type it out. hahaha. all her fault !! she ask me to dun bother washin up aft trng cos im just gng to e bt market for dinner and no one's there to see me !! hahaha there were so many woww guys there la !! THE HAWKERS !!!!! HAHAHAHAHAH. okayy the screws in my head are reallae loose !! or they're alrdy off my head !! heehee.

i loveeeeeee euuuuu my daughter !! --made me laugh and laugh till i forgot how DEPRESSED I AM !! heex. just kidding.... <3>

2005-07-06T20:38:00.000+08:00

=(.

someone kill me please... before i really become the suicider.

2005-07-05T18:38:00.000+08:00